My favorite time of day is the evening.
Right before sunset, when the sun paints everything in golden undertones and you hold onto the last moments of warm rays and colourful skies.
I think its my favorite because for some reason, I find complete peace in those fading moments. I breath in the crisp fresh air, reflect on the day I just had and look forward to what the future has to bring.
Its as if time is in a balance and I and all that is around me is at its center.
I spent this evening alone on the deck, sitting on a Muskoka chair, drinking Apothic red wine and reading NT Wrights’ “Surprised by Hope”. It was marvelous.
I considered taking a picture to share the moment or even remember it for future reference, but then I realized that this was something that had to be experienced first hand. It had to be felt, breathed, and taken all in. It would have been lovely to shared it with someone, but I remained content with knowing that some moments are so rich on their own that you can’t even think for more then a moment that anything else could make it better. So I sat, drank, read, and enjoyed the changing breeze and fading light.
A song came to mind and I started singing. God I Look to You by Jenn Johnson felt so appropriate for the moment.
The lyrics are:
God I look to you, I won’t be overwhelmed
Give me vision to see things like you do
God I look to you, You’re where my help comes from
Give me wisdom; You know just what to do.
I will love you Lord my strength
I will love you Lord my shield
I will love you Lord my rock
Forever all my days I will love you God
Hallelujah our God reigns
Hallelujah our God reigns
Hallelujah our God reings
Forever all my days Hallelujah
Those words were an anchor point for me. Like the moment, the words were balancing my life: where I’ve come from, where I am, and where I am going. It is the hopeful reminder that my life is in Christ and I have the assurance that as He has been faithful to guide me thus far, He will continue to do so all my days as I continue to walk faithfully with Him.
I have a lot of dreams, a lot of hopes and desires, and I don’t know when, or even if they will all be fulfilled, but I do know that despite uncertainty, I can stand firm in the promise that God has something great for me. As I seek Him with all my heart, even in moments of doubts or laziness, God remains steadfast and faithful to me.
I am moving forward. I am chasing after my dreams. I am the woman I always hoped I would someday be and each day I continue to become more and more the person I long to be.
This is the springboard from which I want to move from. I want to remember this truth and open my heart and mind to more revelation as I continue to learn and grow as a person, as a woman, and as a leader.
Im excited to see where God takes me because I know that there is no better life to live then one that is lived at the center of God’s will. I know that God wants shalom for my life and for all creation. So each and every day, if I live for God and live to bring shalom to those around me then I am doing God’s will. “Until the day God deigns to reveal the future to man, the sum of human wisdom can be contained in these two words: wait and hope.” And I want to add to Alexander Dumas’ words. Until the day God deigns to reveal the future to me, live for peace and justice. If thats the minimum I do, I will live a rich life and change the world.
This is where I’m at right now. Good night y’all.